Serious illness in the family

As the reality of life’s ‘evening shadows’ turn up in daily life, even the real prospect of the inevitable 'setting of the sun' becomes a worthy focus.

Well beyond the sketchy promises/illusions of religion there are much more concrete life values that are well proven not to end with the final heartbeat. Many of the most significant inner values in anyone’s life have no 'expiry date' ---

The capacity for inspiration ...for encouragement, assurance, to give confidence and to find trust -- were by far the greatest contribution to my life for many years before my parents passing, and these beautiful things definitely didn't end with their final heart beat! Their trust in moral decency and courage to stand for truth is a gift that lives on.

These values still shape my person and continue to be a valuable part of mine and many others life resources. To be honest, for me at least, many of the important aspects of a practical life have already fallen away .. The capacity I once had for significant practical help and support for the people I love most -- my family, and even for my wife has already been taken from me in many ways. As well, the world has become so complex and unpredictable that I can hardly consider any advice I my have or guidance I may come with to be very reliable to anyone any more....

And so for today, my days are motivated by a simpler, quieter intention: to tend to those parts of myself that I hope will endure beyond the nightfall—to deepen what remains when 'doing' gives way to just 'being', and to focus most on what will go on from me when the sun has set.